I didn’t set any goals for myself last week because I didn’t know what part of the country I would be in or how I would be feeling.
What a week it’s been. I’m learning that I have better coping mechanisms than I ever thought possible. As you know by now, my mom is at the end stages of stage 4 melanoma. I am trying to visit with her now as often as I can. Well, she lives in Florida and I live in Texas. I happen to have a particular fear that doesn’t work too well in this situation. I have a fear of flying, which is compounded by claustrophobia. Not a good match, huh?
I have been working on this fear for many years and actually feel like I have made some strides. I admit that I do take a low dose of xanax to take the edge off before getting in the plane. But I have really done much better lately. I think that when you are given certain circumstances, something else inside of you kicks in, and you just do what has to be done. You are given the strength that you need.
I am sitting bedside with my mom right now. She is sleeping a lot. However, she’s still having some decent moments each day. I just hope that when the time comes I am given even more strength, because I know that I will need it.
Sorry for this depressing post. I give myself a little bit of time each day to be sad and then I move on. I always say, “Life is short, every day is a gift. Be kind to others and don’t forget to take the time to smell the roses!”
So sorry for what you are going through Stacie. Its amazing the things we can do, when we have to, isn’t it? We women can be pretty amazing sometimes. Big (((HUGS))) to you all.
Veronica and Daniel says
Praying for strength for you and many wonderful moments with your mom. I’m sure it means so much to her to have you next to her! 🙂
Sarah Marie says
Bless you hunny! Keep your chin up!
Stacie, You will never regret any of this time, I promise you. Feeling a bit afraid, vulnerable, and scared is very natural. You will surprise yourself with the strength you have. I am praying for peace in your heart and peace for your mom. I don’t even know you except for your youTube channel and blog but I am sad for you. I guess we all live in the family of man. Bless you.
Hope you have a good and peace-filled week!
Zhanna Frid says
Your family is in my thoughts and prayers! Stay strong feeling all those things is normal. It may surprise you how strong you can be when I was going through cancer my strength surprised me and my family kept me strong. Surround yourself with family and loved ones they will keep you going.
gina defraia says
Sometimes don’t you wish life came with instructions on how to handle these hard, real life situations? I am sending you positive juju. I think it is great that you are allowing yourself to feel the hard emotions. I think we try to be so strong for others that we forget to take care of ourselves.
And I also have a fear of flying….Thank god for Xanax!
Wishing you well,
Spend as much time with your Mom as you can. Nothing else matters.
I will keep you both in my prayers. I am so happy you are forcing yourself to face your fears and sit bedside with your mom as much as possible. You will always remember being able to take care of her during this really difficult time. xox tiffani
My thoughts are with you and your family! Family is so important and it is so nice you are spending as much time as you can with your mom!
Praying for you and your family. Praying that god gives you strength, and that you will find peace in his presence!
I like your blog and you tube channel =)
Jenn @ Bliss to Bean says
Found you from your Fall Swap partner’s blog…my thoughts are with you during this difficult time!! You seem to be such a beautiful person and I cannot imagine what it’s like to go through this. Stay optimistic and I wish for you to find that strength when you need it most. *virtual hugs*
Found you from your partner’s blog (the fall swap link-up). I just wanted to say that I’m thinking about you and your family. I’m so sorry for all that you’re going through. Your blog friends will be here to keep you strong and to support you in any way needed!
found you on ACWOM, sorry to year about your tough times right now! i hope everything turns up for the better <3